From My Point of Pew: 03.02.14

Readings for the 8th Sunday in Ordinary Time, March 3, 2014.

Today the priest talked at length about how much we worry. He offered lots of personal stories today about how much his mom worries, about how his stress level has recently gotten so high as to cause chest pains even though his heart and body are in perfect health. He warned us to listen to this Gospel and take it to heart.

What I’ve been thinking about lately is how unknown heaven is. I worry so much. It’s such a part of my day. I work really hard not to get bogged down with worry but my mind is constantly turning something over and over trying to figure it out. It is hard to quiet this in my head. Do saints worry in heaven? Do they watch us and worry about the choices we are making? In heaven, what is my mind going to mull over if not worry? These questions kinda scare the bejeezus out of me. Which maybe is indicative how part of me worry is. I should probably work on that. Is worry the same as concern? Can we change anything without worry? Isn’t worry the first step to change? Or the precedent to action? The first step to making a difference? Is the opposite of worry, apathy? I’m sure God doesn’t want us to be apathetic but rather detached. Perhaps worry means that we pull whatever that worry is too close to us. Close enough to block God. I guess this is God giving me a hint about what to work on during Lent.